Heaven's Journey - One step at a time

Slaps forehead

aikhui — Sat, 07 Nov 2009 14:58:26 +0000

Please please have some form of initiative. I’m not here to spoon feed you forever and neither will people do in the future! Can’t stand it when you were expected to do the simplest of things and it’s not even done at the last minute. If that’s the case, what’s the difference of you and the normal person sitting beside you.

This is bad..

aikhui — Mon, 26 Oct 2009 03:18:26 +0000

School is starting to become my 2nd home.

aikhui — Sat, 17 Oct 2009 14:49:37 +0000

It’s sad when nothing happens..

Bible readings

aikhui — Sat, 17 Oct 2009 14:15:21 +0000

The other day, Chun passed me a Bible reading system. It’s designed to read 10 chapters of the Bible per day. Though it doesn’t really say how long it will take to finish the Bible per se but the purpose is for one to get a variety of biblical reading via this system. Will start tonight and see how far and consistent i’ll go..

Recently, I don’t really know what I am doing. I seem to be losing myself to a whole list of readings, assignments and deadlines. I mean this school stuff does define me but it’s not me, it doesn’t come from my interest, my desire, it’s just like a ‘by the way’ thing. Furthermore, it’s taking up so much time that I don’t have time to do other stuff and I end up stealing time from my service, from my ‘me’ time, from anywhere that doesn’t require me to put a lot of effort in. It even takes friendship time away.

I’m really afraid that I am losing ‘me’ in this process and a whole new ‘me’ is being developed. I think I’m redefining myself and prob just resistant to change. I wish for the old days and am quite ok with the old me but yet a bit happy though apprehensive for the new me.. Or probably there is just nothing happening at all and it’s all in the mind?

I don’t know.. maybe I’m just losing everything I hold dear.. and I’m afraid..

aikhui — Sat, 17 Oct 2009 13:24:17 +0000

it’s true that I hide my true self pretty well..

aikhui — Sat, 17 Oct 2009 13:13:54 +0000

Seems that I am not myself anymore…

aikhui — Sat, 10 Oct 2009 15:13:45 +0000

no matter what happens, I’ll be your shelter, that I promise..

Ponder it..

aikhui — Sun, 04 Oct 2009 16:27:40 +0000

The other day, I had a friend who said this to me after reading my essay.

“I like your essay. I think it’s a masterpiece in smoking. Totally rocks”

I had a super conundrum when I heard that. Should I be happy or sad?

aikhui — Wed, 23 Sep 2009 15:52:59 +0000

往事只能回味。时间过了就不会再回来了。

aikhui — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 15:32:15 +0000

Just want to take a break and see the world pass me by..