School is starting to become my 2nd home.
October 26, 2009
October 17, 2009
Bible readings
The other day, Chun passed me a Bible reading system. It’s designed to read 10 chapters of the Bible per day. Though it doesn’t really say how long it will take to finish the Bible per se but the purpose is for one to get a variety of biblical reading via this system. Will start tonight and see how far and consistent i’ll go..
Recently, I don’t really know what I am doing. I seem to be losing myself to a whole list of readings, assignments and deadlines. I mean this school stuff does define me but it’s not me, it doesn’t come from my interest, my desire, it’s just like a ‘by the way’ thing. Furthermore, it’s taking up so much time that I don’t have time to do other stuff and I end up stealing time from my service, from my ‘me’ time, from anywhere that doesn’t require me to put a lot of effort in. It even takes friendship time away.
I’m really afraid that I am losing ‘me’ in this process and a whole new ‘me’ is being developed. I think I’m redefining myself and prob just resistant to change. I wish for the old days and am quite ok with the old me but yet a bit happy though apprehensive for the new me.. Or probably there is just nothing happening at all and it’s all in the mind?
I don’t know.. maybe I’m just losing everything I hold dear.. and I’m afraid..
October 10, 2009
October 5, 2009
Ponder it..
The other day, I had a friend who said this to me after reading my essay.
“I like your essay. I think it’s a masterpiece in smoking. Totally rocks”
I had a super conundrum when I heard that. Should I be happy or sad?
