Full blown

Finally the fever caught up with me. Now it’s a full blown fever at a pretty high temperature. I’m feeling pretty hot and tired now.. it’s been a long time since I feel so sick. Hope I’ll get well soon.

Haven’t been in tip-top condition for a long time. Feel nauseous and not sleeping well. But still ok in other things. Still can eat, still can laugh.

I know it’s not supposed to matter to me but yet it does. I hope I have a clear mind to know what I’m supposed to do, not to be influenced by anything that happens.

Reaction

Remind to self – caffeine is bad, will feeling terrible after taking it

reflections

Last week during YF, we learnt about patience and wisdom with relation to BGR. I’ve been thinking about some of the stuff discussed and thought it would be wise to jot down so notes about it.

1) Sometimes it’s pretty painful to like someone – is it cos we are not waiting for God’s timing and direction?
2) What is the best way to know that it is God’s timing?

To me, I think (1) is true. Even if that someone is what God has 订做 for you but if you take it before it’s ‘ripe’ it will be bad for you. The analogy to it will be like baking a cake, if the mixture is supposed to be in the oven for 30 mins, it has to be in there for at least 30 mins. Anything less than that it will not be edible and you would burn your hands but on the other hand if you leave it in the oven for more than 30 mins, nothing will happen cos the timer has stopped. Maybe this analogy is stupid but it makes a lot sense to me. Cos I believe when the time comes for the countdown of singlehood to reach zero, God will direct my paths ahead. I should not be jumping the gun thinking that I know better than God. No only in BGR but other matters like career options, marriage, family planning and etc, all the important life decisions. As for (2), think it is as what my mom always say, God knows the timing, what you have to do is to develop yourself, make sure you are living for God and not be influenced by the world standards. When you have honoured God, He will make all things beautiful in His time.

Isn’t it sad that good intentions don’t usually get appreciated? I was expecting it but still it’s still sad that it happens.

how?

I don’t know what to do when sometimes things just irks me but it’s beyond my control.

Jitters

There is this archi essay that I mention a few days ago. Still struggling with it but thank God that I managed to formulate an argument for it. I’m still writing it as of now but finishing soon but I’m suddenly struck with a bout of the runs. Weird.. Maybe I’m over stressed with the essay.

nuts or what?

I think I’m crazy, but I’m playing with the thought of working as a DXO… maybe I can’t get enough of the army..

??

I’m really puzzled about how to start my architecture essay. As much as I like this module. I’m actually pretty scared about doing the essay. I don’t even know how to write it. Looks like I’m kinda dead?