excuses…

I usually don’t like to give excuses cos I don’t really like to defend myself. But this time, I can’t say for sure that I’ll be submissive. The matter for the whole thing was that I wasn’t able to get things done although I promised that I will do it. Wasn’t because I didn’t do but I was too busy to get it done. I also couldn’t get others to do it because it could not be passed through so many hands or it’s like so out of the way to do it. I know I need to seek for help when I know that I can’t finish the task but this time it seemed very hard to ask for help as conditions were just not favourable. Now that I’m free-er in the coming weekend/week, I will get things done chop chop. So I’m really really sorry for the delay.

Tired but it’s ok..

Been feeling very tired this week, maybe it’s all the mad rush from place to place. And I have to keep reminding myself that I’m no longer a Year 2. It’s Year 3 now and it’s not a time I can slack or play around. Furthermore, at my age, I should be mature enough to do the correct thing and not idle my time away. I’ll do my utmost best this year!

this is something that my twin wrote. I think I’ll use it to self encourage myself too..

鞭策自己，加油努力，我给自己的承诺。

奕辉，加油！记住－志者事竟成。

Self-hate

Sometimes I don’t know what is going on, but I don’t like myself, esp. the way I do things. Or maybe that’s how things go so will somehow end up in that state no matter what I do.

To be truthful, I sometimes ponder this thought around and around. But I just can’t find an answer.

I look forward to the day when I can finally emerge from all these merry-go-round and become a someone that is at least up to my expectations.

We, the People…

Taking a module called “Political History of the US”. And definitely we would start off with the basics but just reading the Constitution and the Amendments itself is killing me. Wonder how am I going to survive with the readings.. Blah blah blah..

On a side note, I haven’t seen Singapore’s Constitution in my 24 years of citizenship. Don’t know if it’s available for the public. Hope it won’t be as complicated as the US.

SEP update again

Well, I’ve handed up my documents le.. Now what’s left to do is to pray and see how God will lead everything from here onwards. If I could really go to Lithuania, I think it’s really a miracle in itself. But I’ll leave the explanation of the miracle to a later time.

Plurk timeline

Plurk.com

I, Me, Myself

I don’t want to be someone else. I want to be me. But sometimes it seems so difficult and frustrating.

Workout needed

I keep saying that I need to exercise but this bag of lazy bones just can’t get out of the house. I really think I’m getting fat and running 10 km the other day showed me that I still can take the distance so I need to exercise when I still can. Getting fat is not an option at this age.

QT

Now that most of my lessons are in the afternoon, I’m going to put my effort into my QT and to really spend more quality time and concentration with God. Am going to do my QT with God and prayer in the morning where it’s better with less distractions and in a fresh mind.

Thought for the week

Sometimes I don’t know how prayer works. I know God has creative manners of making things happen and I try very hard to trust in his ways of working. But yet, I find myself doubting and questioning, sometimes even sinking into self-denial, self-repression. But through all these, I still will come out of it all to know that God makes no mistakes, no matter how ‘mistake’ I think His way for me is.