I guess that’s that.. Time to look on ahead for new adventures!
And so I wonder if I am not as good as I’m supposed to be. Is it because I’m not good enough? Where? What? How to improve? These thoughts just run through the mind. Frankly, the biggest hurdle now is really myself, let myself go.
Well, what just happened? the past 12 hours made everything turn back into a roller coaster ride again….. Brace myself for impact or whatever loops and sudden drops that this ride has again for me.
Can’t sleep tonight. Don’t know why. Or should I say I know why but I don’t understand why I am pondering over it.. I am supposed to have got over it but it’s still bugging me still. Frustrated at myself…
I must say the past four weeks of roller coaster ride was kinda fun. Made new friends, saw new things and pretty much understood myself better. So I guess it’s back to normalcy for now. Till the next time, guys!
I guess I should focus more on my work now. Since I can’t do much regarding the current situation. Work first, stress later.
Why should I care when you don’t? I feel silly putting myself in this up and down roller coaster ride.
I did a search using her email.. and chance upon her blog.
there was one entry that says this
I WANT TO LIVE FOR JESUS SO THAT SOMEONE ELSE MIGHT SEE THAT HE IS EVERYTHING TO ME.
It’s true, that sentence I mean, but I have yet to see it from her. I wonder if she has changed since she posted that..
I can just sit and look at your eyes all day. I might probably drown in them.
Sometimes I don’t know why but I keep giving and giving without seeking anything in return.. Then I suddenly think, who’s going to give to me? I hoped for some reciprocation but if nothing comes back should I feel depressed about it? The bottom-line of all these is, I didn’t ask for something in return and if I expect something, I should not because reality and expectations will never match. So I should just appreciate and enjoy the very little things that get trickled back to me because those are the real meaningful returns from all my giving.
